Breaking Point

Hi Loves,

My first post of 2020! Happy New Year!

I know I'm super late, but my absence was necessary in order for me to grow. Normally people (including myself) are screaming, "New year, same me!" But this year, it was different then that. I'm actually different and I'm loving it!

I went on a deep journey to truly healing that required me to isolate from everything and everyone. Although I shed many, MANY tears, some of joy and some for sadness, I grew and developed a better person. 

I knew I was feeling better when I wanted to go out for the NYE celebration! I even DIY'd my outfit.

I used: Boa, scissors, an old dress, and a glue gun.

Before:

After:

What I Wore: 

Dress Bebe | Boa Michaels | Shoes Lola Shoetique

Below are a some of the lessons I learned on my journey to discovering my best self: 

• Can't do anything without putting God first! 

My biggest accomplishment over the last year was getting a better relationship with God. Man 2014 was the hardest year I've ever had in life (so I thought!) Then 2018-2019 came and really took things to a whole different level! I did what I wanted to do, when I wanted to do it. Sometimes you have to reevaluate the way you do things. I was doing things without God. 

The moment I bought myself a journal, I promised to pray before I did anything! It helped me soooooo much. 

You can't even find your keys without God. lol For example, I misplaced my mother's keys and angrily searched for them for over an hour. As soon as I prayed and said "Amen," I immediately found they keys! 

• You can't help others if you can't help yourself! 

This is a biggy for me. Lord knows I struggled a very long time with this, but I'm working on it! This year I worked hard with putting myself first. I felt like I was able to do more for others by taking care of me. You have to be selfish to be selfless. If I reach my goals, then I'm able to give back and help other people later in the world.

1. Know your worth. 
2. BOUNDARIES! BOUNDARIES! BOUNDARIES! Learned to say no or yes when necessary. 

• Being a victim is the WORST THING EVER! 

Having a victim mentality is something that can really hold you back! I had this mindset for so long and it was incredibly hard to get over it. I always blamed other people for EVERYTHING. After digging deep I learned about accountability. I started living by this: "When you point your finger at others, there's more pointing back at you!"

If you are accountable for actions, then you are able to come up with solutions. Without accountability, you are only able to focus on the problem. You will forever be stuck! You'll always be one to focus on the problem, rather than the solution.

• Your breaking point is the first point of finding the real you! 

I learned about the importance of reaching your breaking point. The things that were meant to break me, actually lead me to my strength. At some point we all must stop feeling sorry for ourselves and really start loving ourselves. I seriously stayed in the house for days, I cried, started going out for drinks again, welcomed people that had already served their purpose in my life to come back, the list goes on. I started to feel stuck and that this repeated cycle would NEVER end. I eventually hit rock bottom. I couldn't get out of the bed some days, lost all motivation, etc After a few months went by, I realized rock bottom wasn't so bad because it was only up from there! For me, rock bottom was actually my biggest blessing. It's the beginning of me falling in love with myself and my life all over again!

So now I can proudly say, "New Year, New Me!"

What are some of the lessons you learned over the last year??

Xoxo,

Courtney :)